Sunday, June 21, 2020

Midsummer

Rocket Boy is now scheduled to go back to St. Louis on Tuesday, June 30th, and he's even having doubts about that -- "Maybe I should stay until July 5th" -- but I think I'm going to encourage him to keep this reservation. July 5th is my birthday, my 60th birthday, and it would make me really depressed to have to say goodbye to him that day. Not to mention driving him to the airport! If he leaves on the 30th, that gives me several days to get over the letdown (having my book group here on July 2nd should help). I've decided my birthday will be a contemplative day. It can't really be anything else -- just me and the kids and I'll probably have to make dinner. (Maybe we'll get takeout. Maybe we'll get takeout on Saturday and have leftovers on my birthday. We'll see.)

This past week Rocket Boy still had to spend most of his time working, but we fit in some nice activities. Monday we went to the Denver Botanic Garden, first time since January. Due to social distancing, we had to reserve "tickets" in advance and arrive within a half hour window. We were almost late on account of traffic, but we made it. The conservatory is closed, and the science building, and our favorite cafe, and the cactus house, etc. But the cafe by the pond was open and you could sit on the deck to eat (it was also a chance to take off our masks). I had cucumber lemonade, which was refreshing.

It was very hot, around 90°, though of course not humid, so I took a leisurely approach to the visit. Kid A and Rocket Boy ran off together, saying they were going to hide, while Kid B and I walked slowly around the gardens. We saw a couple of rabbits, and there was a black-crowned night heron standing in one of the ponds that have koi. Eventually we found the hiders, and Kid B ran off with them while I sat in this nice little garden (which I don't remember seeing before) and contemplated its beauty. I wish we could have come here in April or May, to see the spring flowers, but it's lovely in every season.

Before Rocket Boy arrived, I made a long to-do list for him, and though we've done several of the things, there are a rather daunting number remaining on the list. One task was to find a couch for the living room (we had the old couch hauled off by Western Disposal last fall). We've been watching Craigslist for weeks and finally found something we liked. Last Tuesday the sellers drove the couch over to our house (we loaded it onto and unloaded it from their truck) and we set it up in our living room. I'm very happy with it. It's dark brown, very soft and comfy. Of course, the day after I took this photo, RB insisted on covering the couch with the ugly beige slipcover that we used to have on our old sofa, and now it looks like something we found in a dumpster. The kids and I have told him in no uncertain terms that we will be removing the slipcover as soon as he's on the airplane.

Rocket Boy is very unhappy about how much time the twins spend playing on iPads, computers, the TV, etc., and I can't blame him -- I'm unhappy about it too, but don't seem to have the energy to do anything about it. The boys are turning into electronic zombies and I'm just letting it happen. We've been doing home school summer school (reading) twice a week, but mostly skipping the field trips, after that remarkably unsuccessful tree walk. So yesterday (Saturday) RB decided it was time to make something happen. He put together a picnic, with almost no help from me, and around 2 pm we drove to Heil Valley Ranch for a late lunch and a hike.

We had such a nice time! The picnic itself was lovely: hard-boiled eggs, cheese sandwiches, sliced cantaloupe, avocado and tomato, chips and homemade dip, and lots of iced tea and water. After eating, however, Rocket Boy wanted to go for a hike and the twins refused to go. I felt so bad for him (and I know he blames me for this, probably deservedly). So I said I would go, and we'd leave the twins behind to watch the car and our stuff at the picnic site. But as RB and I neared the trailhead (and I realized I'd left my hat in the car and I was lugging my stuff in a stupid canvas bag because I'd forgotten to bring a pack), I said "I've got to go back. I can't leave them there. They're only 12 years old." So I went back and RB did the hike alone. At one point the twins changed their mind and went to try to find him on the trail, but they got scolded by an older couple for "going the wrong way" -- apparently the trails are all one-way now, to aid with social distancing -- and they gave up and came back. So all of that was unfortunate.

But here's the thing -- it was an absolutely gorgeous day. The twins and I sat at the picnic table or ran around and checked out the dry creek, and we were so happy! It was hot in the sun, but in the shade of the ponderosa pines it was the perfect temperature. We saw a Steller's jay and a robin, butterflies and dragonflies, and RB saw a deer on his hike. Then, after he'd gotten back and we were starting to pack up our stuff, we had the best sighting of the day -- a wild turkey! An almost tame wild turkey, all by itself, happily scratching the dirt for bugs. We followed it around the picnic area and it paid very little attention to us. So fun!

Back at home, our hummingbird has been spending less time on her nest, and at first I thought maybe it had failed, the eggs hadn't hatched, etc. But this weekend I realized that what looked like little sticks poking out of the nest were actually BEAKS -- she has two live babies! So she has to be gone a lot, because she's getting food for everybody. She always comes back when we have a thunderstorm (as we did today) and at night. Rocket Boy and I cleaned up the front porch today and I found my old hummingbird feeder, so I mixed up some sugar solution and hung it up for her. I don't know if she's found it yet.

So we have one more week together as a family and a lot of things to get done -- some will and some won't, of course. It's fine. What doesn't get done this week may get done on some other visit, or I'll do it alone, or it won't get done. Nothing seems as important as all the stuff going on in the world right now -- the Black Lives Matter marches, the continuing pandemic, Trump's stupid behavior (though two Supreme Court decisions against him this week were gratifying).

We got the sad news yesterday that Aunt Nonny's bulldog Lyla died unexpectedly -- this has really been the month for pet deaths in the family, as I also heard the very sad news that my cousin's young dog died too. Pie Bear's ashes are ready and I must go pick them up from the vet tomorrow. Poor Pie Bear -- it's as though he's already been forgotten. Chester now comes and sits on me in the morning, to wake me up -- this was previously Pie's responsibility. Chester weighs several pounds more than Pie did at the end, so I really feel it when he climbs on my chest. Also, he licks my face, which Pie didn't do. Little tiny licks, all over my face, with the same tongue he uses to clean his butt. Ahh, cats. I'm glad we still have one.

Saturday, June 13, 2020

One less cat

We finally had Pie Bear put to sleep, on Thursday, June 11th. And although it was absolutely the right thing to do, it ended up being more traumatic than it might have been, on account of the stupid virus.

I called the vet on Wednesday to find out how to get Pie's mouth tumor checked (he was diagnosed with it almost exactly one year ago). The woman I talked to told me to call back at 7 am the next day -- 7:15 is too late! Even 7:05 might be too late! -- for a same-day appointment. For regular appointments they're booking into August. I'm not sure why they're so backed up, since they never fully shut down, but I know their hours are significantly reduced, and a lot of people in Boulder have pets, so... So I set my alarm for 6:50, got up and waited until 7, and called. I got through and made an appointment for 10:15 am. And then I sat around and waited until it was time to go, very sleepy but afraid to go back to bed and oversleep.

I left the house around 9:50, with Pie in his carrier in the passenger seat, yowling away. Halfway down the block I realized I didn't have a mask, so I phoned Rocket Boy and he came running down the street with one. Not sure why I couldn't have just gone back to the house and gotten it, but anyway, I thanked him and drove on. Only, I forgot how to get to the vet's (where I've been a hundred times) and went sailing down South Boulder Road as if I were going -- where, exactly? I don't even know. After a while I realized that I'd 100% screwed up, but along came Cherryvale, so I took that to Baseline and from there to 55th and actually made it to the vet on time. It might even be worth going that way on purpose. I should time myself going both ways.

I parked in my usual spot and called the office -- they told me to park in a different place and call again -- I did that and they told me to wait for a technician. I put on my mask and got Pie's carrier out of the car to wait. The technician came, and I explained that we wanted to know whether it was time to put Pie to sleep. He nodded soberly and took Pie away. I don't think I even said "Be good kitty, Pie Bear." I thought I'd see him again. Maybe 10 minutes later the vet called. She said that the tumor had grown and had worked its way into his jaw and was probably painful. We agreed that it was time to let him go. Then she asked me if I wanted to come in and be with him -- "It's the one thing we let people come in for" -- and for some reason I said no. I didn't want to expose the vet -- but why? I'm not sick. I have gone over and over this decision since then. I imagine myself in the room, petting Pie and saying goodbye. That didn't happen.

I had to talk to the office person again, give her my credit card number, decide about cremation. Rocket Boy and I had agreed quite a while back that we would pay for "private cremation" -- where you actually get your cat's ashes back instead of some random ashes from a bunch of pets they cremate together.

She asked if we wanted Pie's paw print in clay -- I said sure, that sounded nice. Then I pictured them picking up Pie's paw and making an impression, his last act as a living cat before they put the needle in. That seemed terribly sad. He wouldn't have any idea why they were doing it. At some point I started crying. The office person brought me some paperwork to sign and gave me back the empty cat carrier. "I'm sorry for your loss," she said. I wept.

And of course when I got home I had to deal with the family, who had not expected Pie to be put to sleep right then -- I think we all, me included, thought they would tell us his condition and then we would bring him home and say goodbye. *I* didn't even say goodbye!

Stupid coronavirus. Think of ALL the people who haven't been able to say goodbye to their fathers and mothers and spouses and grandparents because you can't go into the coronavirus section of the hospital. Of course I could have been with Pie when he died. Why didn't I do that? I just don't know.

We adopted Pie, along with a female cat, Whiskers, in December 2007, about three months before the twins were born. What a surprise to the cats when the nice quiet home they'd joined became Screaming Baby Central. Twelve and a half years we had Pie (Whiskers died in 2010). We'd been giving him insulin shots since August 2013. It's so strange not to prepare insulin needles twice a day. Feeding just Chester is so easy -- it takes about two minutes. Open a can, dish out the food, set it down. Chester keeps looking for Pie's food, because we always fed the cats in different rooms and after they'd eaten a bit of their food they would switch and eat the other kind.

I'll get over it -- it's not a tragedy, just normal life and death. Just so sudden. One less cat.

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Reading post: Little Women and a bunch of other stuff...

Another reading post: ignore if it's not your thing. Even if it is your thing, it's a bit of a mess.

My sixth book for the Classics Challenge is Little Women by Louisa May Alcott, first published in 1868 (Part 1) and 1869 (Part 2, sometimes printed separately as Good Wives). For background, context, and perspective, I also read part or all of a lot of other books, including Hospital Sketches by Louisa May Alcott (1863), Little Men by Louisa May Alcott (1871), Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman (1892 version), The Unwritten War: American Writers and the Civil War by Daniel Aaron (1973), March by Geraldine Brooks (2005), and Now the Drum of War: Walt Whitman and his Brothers in the Civil War by Robert Roper (2008). Since I chose Little Women to fit into category #12, "Classic Adaptation," I also planned to watch the most recent film version, but haven't managed to do that yet. I may come back and edit this post after I do (as if it's not long enough already).

So, why all these other books? Why couldn't I just read Little Women and be done with it? I'll try to explain.

My original plan for the Classics Challenge this year was to read books about the Civil War and its aftermath. I quickly realized that I wasn't interested in battles. I wanted to know about the war from the perspective of African-Americans, even though I know that historians don't view slavery as the real cause of the war. The war resulted in big changes to Black people's lives, though not entirely positive ones (end of slavery but then comes Reconstruction, Jim Crow, etc.). I thought trying to understand race in America would be useful during this election year. I don't think I'm psychic, but yes, it's turning out to have been a good decision.

But I realized when I started choosing books to read that there aren't a lot of older classic novels about the war, especially not from the perspective of African-Americans -- until Toni Morrison wrote Beloved (1987). There's The Red Badge of Courage (1895), and Gone with the Wind (1936) for the southern/racist view, but I'd read them both and didn't want to revisit them. I assumed that the great fiction writers (Hawthorne, Melville, Twain, James, etc.) of the time would have written about the war, but they didn't. A scholarly book I got from the CU library, The Unwritten War (Aaron, 1973), is basically chapter after chapter about why major Civil War era writers didn't write about the war. Sections of the book are titled "A Philosophical View of the Whole Affair," "The Malingerers," etc.
[Boston Unitarian minister] John Weiss did not expect an American masterpiece to emerge from the War itself (it was time, he said, to stop sighing for Iliads), but almost immediately after Appomattox Northern commentators began to complain about the failure of American writers to do justice to the recent strife and to offer extenuating reasons why... (p. xv)
One exception -- sort of -- is Walt Whitman, who, though mostly past his prime by the 1860s, did write poems about the war, specifically about soldiers who suffered and died from injury or illness. He also wrote a great poem about Lincoln's death, "When Lilacs Last in the Door-Yard Bloom'd" (1865). So I started reading Leaves of Grass, which contains pretty much all the poems Whitman ever wrote. He revised it throughout his life, adding in his latest poems each time instead of starting a new volume. I thought I couldn't include it as one of my "Classics" because it's poetry, not a novel, but I just wanted to read it (I'm still working on it). And as soon as I started reading it, I thought, I need some context. I need to know more about this guy than Wikipedia can give me.

So, at the Boulder Public Library, back when you could still browse the shelves, I found this very interesting and readable biography, Now the Drum of War (Roper, 2008). In addition to explaining many things I needed to know about Whitman, it also explains why neither he nor anyone else wanted to write about the war:
...Apparently a grand subject, full of heroism and historical significance, the war was hard to grasp for contemporary Americans, and even harder to render in a way that appealed to a commercial audience. The experience of the common soldiers, if honestly told, was too raw for polite literature, and a national narrative of brother slaughtering brother only sounds like a good idea for a book -- in the reading and writing of it, a quality of unredeemed horror would make itself felt. (p. 174)
Roper also discusses the problem of white people writing about African-Americans at that time:
An epic novel or poem of the war would have to reckon with slavery and its effects, and more to the point, with the reality of black people, who as convincing and articulate characters are almost entirely missing from the literature that did get written. Nor was the story of Reconstruction something that Americans were eager to tell each other, or knew how to speak of. The rapid retreat from postwar reform by the Federal authorities, and the return almost to the status quo ante for Southern blacks, threw an odd light on the recent vast bloodletting -- if not for this, then, good God, for what? (p. 175)
One of Walt Whitman's brothers was a Union soldier, but Whitman himself served as a sort of nurse/comforter in military hospitals in Washington during the war, which fit in well with his general love of young men. He wrote about how much he enjoyed kissing the wounded soldiers, for instance. It was an important time in his life.

At the age of 30, Louisa May Alcott was also, briefly, a nurse in a military hospital, as described in her Hospital Sketches (1863), which I read online (it's very much in the public domain). This is an interesting little book, sounding much more real than her children's books, though still exhibiting her tendency to turn everything into a perfect little story with a moral. It's based on her letters home during her time as a nurse, which were turned into articles for an abolitionist magazine, and then into this book. She calls herself Tribulation Periwinkle and mentions that she has a little brother Tom, which Louisa May Alcott didn't have. But otherwise the stories are apparently almost identical to her letters home. Her descriptions of the wounded men's terrible injuries made me think of the quote from Roper above: "The experience of the common soldiers, if honestly told, was too raw for polite literature..."

There are tiny mentions of Black people here and there throughout the book, mostly fairly neutral for the time though some made me wince. But her abolitionist sensibilities are also visible, as when she comments on who she thinks has stolen her apples:
...and the apples... took to themselves wings and flew away; whither no man could tell, though certain black imps might have thrown light upon the matter, had not the plaintiff in the case been loth to add another to the many trials of long-suffering Africa.
In the last full chapter she goes into more depth about her experiences from a racial point of view. She says she was warned before heading to Washington "not to be too rampant on the subject of slavery," but gradually she finds that she cannot be silent in the face of all the prejudice around her. One day, while fixing food for her patients, she picks up "a funny little black baby, who was toddling about the nurses' kitchen," which upsets another nurse, from Virginia:
"Gracious, Miss P.! how can you? I've been here six months. and never so much as touched the little toad with a poker."
"More shame for you, ma'am," responded Miss P.; and, with the natural perversity of a Yankee, followed up the blow by kissing "the toad," with ardor. His face was providentially as clean and shiny as if his mamma had just polished it up with a corner of her apron and a drop from the tea-kettle spout, like old Aunt Chloe.* This rash act, and the anti-slavery lecture that followed, while one hand stirred gruel for sick America, and the other hugged baby Africa,** did not produce the cheering result which I fondly expected; for my comrade henceforth regarded me as a dangerous fanatic...
*A character in Uncle Tom's Cabin.
**Note that even for Alcott, white people are "America," and Black people are "Africa," and she has this sense that the U.S. is a white country, despite the fact that white people stole it from its original people and Black people were there with white people almost from the very beginning.
 
The last line of the book, in the Postscript, is this:
The next hospital I enter will, I hope, be one for the colored regiments, as they seem to be proving their right to the admiration and kind offices of their white relations, who owe them so large a debt, a little part of which I shall be so proud to pay.
Spoken like the abolitionist she was, though in fact she did not enter any more hospitals. She contracted typhoid fever, recovered but was "never well afterward," and returned to Concord, Massachusetts, and her family.

This brings us to Little Women (1868/9), supposedly the subject of this very long post, which I first read when I was probably 11 or 12. Briefly, it is the story of four sisters, Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy (based on Louisa and her three sisters Anna, Lizzie, and May), who with their mother Marmee are keeping the home fires burning while their father, an army chaplain, is off "where the fighting is," during the early part of the Civil War (note that Louisa's real father, Bronson Alcott, was not a chaplain and did not serve in the war). At the beginning of the book they range in age from 16 (Meg) to 12 (Amy), and they proceed to have various mild adventures which teach them important life lessons, such as "control your temper" and "don't envy what others have." Part 1 of the book takes place over the course of a year (possibly 1861, but it would make much more sense if it were 1862), and Part 2 begins three years later and goes on for several more years, ending with three of the sisters married with children.

I have to admit that I have never much liked this book and I have never understood why so many people love it so much. Louisa May Alcott wrote several other books for young people and I liked many of those better (Little Men (1871), Eight Cousins (1875), Jack and Jill (1880), etc.). I chose Little Women for the Classics Challenge because I knew it was set during the Civil War, and I wanted to reread it through that lens. But rereading it was even less pleasant than I expected. I like the characters of Jo Marsh and her sisters, but I find Marmee's moralizing excruciating. In later books, Alcott figured out how to make the moralizing more palatable, even welcome.

In addition to my irritation with Marmee, I remembered as I read that I always disliked the March sisters' endless mooning over money. Every young woman they know seems to be wealthy (and brainless), and they all, even Jo, constantly wish they could have some of that money so they could have nicer clothes, trips to Europe, and so on. I remember thinking that the Marches seemed awfully shallow. But it makes more sense when you know that the Alcotts were truly poverty-stricken and sometimes starving. Louisa May Alcott makes their lives seem less terrible in her novel, but retains their longing for money. And the awful young women they associate with? Well, Alcott told her publisher that she couldn't write a book about girls because she didn't like them and didn't know many (except her sisters). If the young women of her acquaintance were like this, I can understand her feelings. Or maybe she just didn't like girls. (But in that case why did she tell an interviewer, "I have fallen in love with so many pretty girls and never once the least bit with any man"?)

Given my current interests, I read Little Women looking for how Alcott portrays Black people. There are very few, but partway through I started wondering whether Hannah, the March family's faithful and underpaid servant, might be Black. Most of the time she speaks pretty much the way the family does, with just a few humorous mispronunciations, but at one point she contributes to a letter that the whole family is writing to Marmee. And this is how she writes:
Dear Mis March--
     I jes drop a line to say we git on fust rate. The girls is clever and fly around right smart. Miss Meg is going to make a proper good housekeeper; she hes the liking for it, and gits the hang of things surprisin quick. Jo doos beat all for goin ahead, but she don't stop to calklate fust, and you never know where she's like to bring up...
That first line sure looks like a clumsy attempt at stereotyped Black speech: "git on fust rate," for heaven's sake. (As if anyone would write that way! She can spell "housekeeper" but not "just" or "get" or "first"?) I haven't been able to find much on the internet about Hannah, other than a journal article about Louisa May Alcott's views on domestic service as illustrated in her writing (Maibor, 2006) which did not attempt to guess Hannah's background. Another short article about how to teach Chapter 4 of Little Women refers to "Irish servant Hannah." Maybe Hannah was supposed to be Irish, but if so, Louisa did not know how to write an Irish accent.

Almost the only other mention of a Black person comes in the very last chapter, as part of the description of the boys who attend Jo's school:
...and a merry little quadroon, who could not be taken in elsewhere, but who was welcome to the "Bhaer-garten," though some people predicted that his admission would ruin the school...
I'm not sure I knew what a quadroon was when I read this as a child. Certainly this sentence contains a wealth of information about prejudice against African-Americans in the North. Although at this point in the story, the Civil War and slavery were both over, Alcott sneaks in this hint that nothing was over. I suppose her publisher might not have allowed her to be more open about her views in a story for children.

I'm now in the middle of rereading Little Men, looking for that "quadroon," but so far he hasn't turned up. There's just Asia, the "black cook." Little Men is fun, though, as I had recalled. Actually, it's incredibly sentimental, but for whatever reason, the sentimentality is easier for me to swallow than it is in Little Women.

March had been sitting in my to-be-read pile for a few years, after I found it in a Little Free Library. My book group read People of the Book by Geraldine Brooks some years back, and I liked it well enough -- that's probably why I snagged March. Once I had it home, I picked it up a few times and set it down again, but this spring seemed a good time to read it, finally.

March is a modern attempt to tell the story of what Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy's father was doing off in the Civil War while they stayed home and learned life lessons. March describes Mr. March's experiences in the war, with flashbacks to his earlier life, and shows how an idealistic dreamer learns the truth about life. Or sort of. In the beginning of the book, March is portrayed as essentially an idiot. He's thrown out of his regiment for being insufferable. And yet, his life is later saved by a former slave who describes him as a "gud kin man." Is he both, or did he become a better person as the book went along? I am not sure. I just didn't get a good sense of him. Brooks' writing is gorgeous and compelling, but did she really understand her character?

As I see it, the problem with March is that the title character is based on a fictional character (Mr. March) who was partly but not entirely based on a real person (Bronson Alcott). It might have worked if Brooks had just expanded on the fictional character of Mr. March, but instead she researched the life of Bronson Alcott and brought some of the understanding she gained to March. But there are so many differences between Louisa May Alcott's character of Mr. March and her father. Most crucially, Bronson Alcott was never an army chaplain in the Civil War. But since Louisa sends her father off to war in Little Women, Geraldine Brooks sends him there, too. And since Louisa sends him to an Army hospital like the one she nursed in, Brooks sends him there, too. So we have a mix of Louisa's fiction, Louisa's real life, Bronson Alcott's real life, and Brooks' imagination. A mix that doesn't quite work for me. It's almost an argument against doing research -- Brooks' novel might have been better if she hadn't known anything about Bronson Alcott.

So that's it for my reading of Little Women and a whole lot of other books that seemed to me to be related. I think I really may come back and add to this after I see the latest movie, but for now this is enough. My next two "Challenge" choices are by African-Americans, which I am very ready to read.

Monday, June 8, 2020

Tree week, bird week, and everything else

It's June 8th, and Rocket Boy was supposed to fly back to St. Louis yesterday, but he decided to extend his visit by two weeks, so we're happily continuing to live as a family (note that that's slightly different from "continuing to live happily..." but probably not enough to matter). He's now planning to leave on Father's Day, so we'll have a little over four weeks together in all. This means that he really does have to work every day -- and he does, for several hours. I've gotten used to that, but today the twins started complaining about it. "Why do you always have to work, why don't you ever play games with us?"

So he let his computer rest for a bit and took Kid A on a bike ride to Dairy Queen -- a nice father & son activity on a summer's day. And later Kid B and I, and Rocket Boy again, went for a walk to the park. So we all got out today. Storm clouds are gathering and we're supposed to have some serious rain and thunderstorms tonight.

We haven't participated in the George Floyd protests, although they've gone on in Denver for days and days, and there were even some in Boulder this past weekend. Fear of the virus, not wanting to deal with parking, feeling old and unable to keep up with the other marchers... stuff like that. But I'm so caught up in the whole thing from watching the news. I think my time to do something will come. Definitely voting, maybe something else. It sounds like a lot of money is coming in to help the movement right now. Maybe there will be a time later when they'll need more money. Or there will be a young person that I can help. I will wait and see.

It is very exciting watching the protests. Terribly upsetting at first, and then as they've continued, more and more amazing. Sometimes I cry. At first I kept thinking, this is great, but nothing will come of it. But they keep marching, despite or because of Trump's idiotic comments and actions. I was impressed that the NFL commissioner decided to speak out in favor of Black Lives Matter, although it feels like too little too late. Why didn't the NFL do something when Trump came down hard on Colin Kaepernick's very mild protests back in 2017? Trump has criticized the NFL for this latest statement too, but in a much milder way, because Trump's pretending to be concerned about George Floyd's death. He must be one mixed-up president right now. A nice thought.

I started "home school summer school" for the kids last week, sort of. As usual, I have a theme for each week. Last week was Tree Week. But I just couldn't get it together to make things happen. I would start the morning watching the PBS Newshour from the night before (with Rocket Boy here, we often have too much going on to watch it in the evening). Then I would cry and feel overwhelmed, and somehow that wasn't the right mood for summer school. The basic schedule is this:
  • Monday & Wednesday: read & write for half an hour each day
  • Tuesday & Thursday: field trip related to the theme
  • Friday, Saturday, Sunday: long weekend
Not too challenging, right? I wanted Kid A to work with this program he has access to through school, Lexia. But he had forgotten his user name. We emailed his teacher but got no response, since she's on summer vacation like us. Since we still can't go to the library and browse for tree books, I downloaded a book about trees onto our Kindle for Kid B to read, but he threw a fit. I ended up reading the preface of the book aloud to them. It was terrible. So much for reading. I had thought to make them write birthday thank-you notes too, but we didn't get to that.

We took one field trip, I forget which day. Could have been Tuesday, or maybe Wednesday. It was supposed to be a tree identification walk around the neighborhood. I brought our little golden book of North American trees -- rather old-fashioned, but it was all I had. I see now that there is a Sibley guide to trees -- that might have been a good substitute. But actually, the little golden book was helpful. It was just incomplete. We successfully identified our own front yard trees (male honey locust and birch), our own backyard trees (maple, oak, Siberian elm), our next-door neighbors' trees (female honey locust to the east, oak to the west), and one of the trees across the street (the cottonwood in the photo above). But we got stuck on the other tree across the street (in photo below). I got the idea that it might be a hackberry, but I couldn't make the ID stick.

We walked further down 32nd Street to a very interesting tree that I've always wondered about. I couldn't find it in the book, though later, with the help of the internet, I realized that it's a catalpa (and is in the book, I just didn't spot it on our walk). Continuing on, we found a tree that wasn't in the book. After we stared at it for a long time, the lady of the house opened her front door and stared at us. We said hello and explained what we were doing. She told us the tree was a Jonathan apple tree, and she knew because they had planted it, long ago. "But there are no apples this year," she said sadly. "That late frost, you know." The same frost that killed all the lilac blooms. It's a wonder anything makes it through the Colorado winter/spring.

The twins were so bored on the tree walk they almost collapsed from lack of enthusiasm. It would have been comical if it hadn't been so annoying. They got in a huge fight over nothing on the way home and Rocket Boy had to console Kid B.

So that was Tree Week. Other activities included eating out at a restaurant -- IHOP -- we were the only customers and we ate outside; going to a store other than the grocery or pet store -- me -- it was Barnes & Noble and I got the book for the book group; and actually going to the library for the first time in almost three months to pick up some books that I had put on hold. I had to make an appointment (mine was for 1:30 pm Saturday). They had my books in a plastic bag, already checked out to me, on a table in the atrium. So I didn't get to go inside the library proper and I didn't see another living soul. We still can't return our books. Supposedly on June 15th I'll be able to make an appointment to return the books we've had since March.

As the protesters march on, this week is Bird Week. Today I read to the twins another chapter of the tree book I'd downloaded, but it's really so badly written that I decided it's not worth continuing. So I tried to download That Quail, Robert, but then discovered that we'd never actually paid for the bad tree book, because Rocket Boy's credit card didn't work (his was compromised and he had to get a new one, but didn't tell Amazon). I can't figure out how to use my Amazon account to buy a book for the Kindle, so we are stuck there for now. I don't know why I have to buy a bird book. I own probably 40 different books about birds. But they're mostly all sort of technical. I also don't know why I don't have a copy of That Quail, Robert, since it was practically my mother's favorite book and she gave it to everybody. I probably had it once and lost it.

Tomorrow is field trip day. Maybe we'll just look at the hummingbird. She is still sitting on her eggs. I wonder when/if they will hatch.